For the past 2 years, I have been the official photographer for my now 12 year-olds soccer team. This year, her team gets the incredible, once-in-a-lifetime opportunity to travel to Spain to train. We are so excited for this opportunity for our daughter and her teammates and want to do what we can to help cover the costs for our girls. I've been considering doing something like this for a while and decided to finally go for it!
I got back onto social media for a little while to share some of my film photography, but I have learned that I don't do social media very well. Since I became pregnant with Brenden and his birth, I feel like I've changed and become a little more anxious and less confident in a way. Or maybe it's just less trusting? I don't know exactly what it is, but I know that I didn't like how often I was on Instagram and the other social medias and how I would agonize over every single word I wrote and how it would be received. I don't really want to be like that, and I'd like to feel confident again and just start posting, but I haven't quite figured out yet how to make social media a tool for me rather than becoming a tool for the app myself. Not since I laid down my business, anyway.
I remember hearing about a parent of one of my students when I was student teaching in a first-grade classroom who had delivered all of her babies at home and thinking - I'm now ashamed to admit - how barbaric that was. *insert palm-forehead emoji here*
It was two days before our move from Utah to Arizona. I had prayed and crossed my fingers that Jordan would go into labor, but it didn't look like it was going to happen. My backup photographers were in place for after I was gone and it broke my heart to give my mothers to them. I was especially sad to let go of this mother because she was a home-birth mama, and there is something really incredible about births like that. I was sorry I wouldn't get to be a part of it... until I got the call!
